Love and trust
Both are hard things to know, to feel, to experience. One can never be sure of what they are, for they are different for each person to know.
Love is limited by boundaries. Most people believe you can only truly love one person. And, though I respect it, I deem it untrue.
Whether there's something wrong with my brain or not, I don't know, but I have the capacity to love pretty much everyone. There is no limit to my love. It just brings me such conflicts at times.
I wish I could live as who I am without fear that my family would disown me were they to find out. I wish I could be with those I love without running away. I wish I didn't have to choose between love and family.
Trust is something I find extremely difficult. All of my life, I've relied only on myself. Trusting people has only left them dead, from my experience.
But... I want to learn. I'm not running any more. I've given up running. I want to have a future. I want to learn what it's like to survive. I want to learn what it's like to live without fear, to love without bounds, to trust without retribution.
And it is my love that will help me learn